a moving saga

tomorrow is the big move, finally. and i approach it with the usual apprehension, hope, and (at times) doubt that anyone would in a similar situation.

boise holds a lot of potential for me, i know it does it if i would ever stick around long enough to give it a chance. and somehow issues always jump out of the shadows right before i’m about to take off, grab a hold of me, make me look back as i’m boarding the plane or bus or driving past the city limits to ask the infamous “what if?”. but i guess an event as big as a move is enough to consider a crisis situation, it’s at least something which pushes those close to the person going away to say or do things that they should have months ago.

someday i really hope to find someone who doesn’t wait until it’s all over to try and make me stay. since when did relationships become like fad diets?

for now, it’s too late to look back. i’ve made my decision. i have an amazing job, an amazing house, and some of my favorite people waiting for me in washington. not only that, but i have the opportunity to really nurture the roots i’ve established there, even after being away for a year. i know i’ll miss my family and friends in boise, but i have to stay true to my initial intentions to spend a few months here after costa rica to reconnect and then to go back home.

pretty convincing right? i'll keep telling myself this.

according to my horoscope, i’m older and wiser. i at least understand the importance of maintaining amazing connections from my past, you never know when they’re going to come in handy. apparently i should also take this week to write a love letter, and i told jill that i hope he settles for a drunk call. but i really hope that this doesn’t happen anytime too soon.

because i did this of my own accord a few weeks back and it was quite anticlimatic. bon voyage!