poof!

it's hard to believe i'll be turning 25 in less than a week: a quarter of a century spent, in this lifetime anyways. i'm waiting for my saturn return to really start freaking out. there's a lot i could potentially judge and analyze, but for now i'll try to just notice.

really i think most of these days are spent reconciling the past with the present. living in the moment, remembering to breathe, letting go of the need to light up a cigarette as well as indulge in my other worst doubts and fears, and working with what i know in my gut and heart. it's a process, but life would certainly not be as interesting if one day i would have everything i need to learn just come to me like "POOF!"

i've finally come to the point where i'm getting enough hours at both of my jobs to do some saving and that is rewarding even though the weeks are long and tiring. at some point soon i hope i can manage a few days off in a row, laying in bed sounds nice, so does some drawing and some adventures on robert's motorcycle.